| Tuesday, August 18, 2009 |
BLOG is so not updated!
so now time to update!
i resigned my job..thanks to the company and their way of doing things...
and of course some people around me are making me resign and do all the nonsense
cant stand it!
now have to concentrate on driving and classes!
i failed p7 again!
fuck!!!
last paper of the diploma course and i will be done
startin ACCA in jan!
cant wait!
i so wanna complete my studies and work
and live alone with my own house and car!
i just wanna be independent..
its not that i wanna run away from my parents but i just wanna be alone and do my things alone
i can do things better if im alone..
and nowdays i just hate my own attitude
and people have been tellin me tat i have to change..
its not like i purposely changed..pple are making me change.
anyway went to malaysia with yuggy and sangee and the gang!
except my sis mum and dad!
it was fun but some thing just didnt make me enjoy..
maybe the tot of getting my results was in my mind and tats why i didnt enjoy much!
anywya tats abt it! too lazy to blog!
Walk to my grave along with your heart ♥ 10:48 PM
| Saturday, July 4, 2009 |
This is you and me when we were so happy and we were so close as brother and sister but now everything is ambused. Thanks to that particular day and watever we faced that made u get so disappointed with me and i really regret doing it. i was high and didnt noe wat i was doing and the other one beside me had to make me do the mistake which i didnt expect to do and make you upset. its been 1 week since we spoke and the last we met was on thursday for your dad's birthday and you just sat directly across of me and u made my moment such a upsetting one. We kept on staring at each other and lookin away. I hated to be there. I just wished i never had such a regretful moment like tat or the best is when i didnt even have a simple common sense of not to do such a mistake. I thought you were ok with it since u also do it but yea, and according to sangee u told her everything about wat you felt and i seriously teared the moment i heard it. I didnt expect it to affect you so much and i will never want to bring a bad name to you because of this. At this moment when we are not even talking and calling each other and when i see u online or u see me online, we are just ignoring each other. i noe u would never read my blog and tat is why im bravely putting this up. i didnt show anything like we are not in good terms to any other cousin and i seriously aint sure how am i gonna face you every sunday for awakening and the moments we use to play catching in the centre and you use to pamper me infront of every one. getting all this is gonna be hard and now i noe onli S and S are gonna be your fav ones. I am no more in tat shoe, and as you said u will call me once u forgive me..i shall wait for the call..
but just to tell...the wait is realli killing me....
i whimper and cry into myself everyday since the day we fought and even the last moment when i hugged you was 1 hour before i did the mistake..i can still remember the moments...
seriously this is the most biggest regret in me.
even if ur starting to hate me or almost already hating me ...
i dunnoe..im speechless.. i dun wish to justify myself..
let things happen its way...
Walk to my grave along with your heart ♥ 10:02 PM
| Friday, June 5, 2009 |
saranya ramalingam19 turnin 20youngest and pampered soul of the RAMALINGAMsmost notorious one..bullies and gets bullied the mosthappy family...happy gal..gets most of wat she wants..status of bgr: single...im just tryin to face down these simple facts in my life and just be happy with wat i havei just got some tution from dd madie and my cousin sangee for hoping my choices...choices as in guys..i think i just feel so unsecured that i think havin a bf is so cool!i am totally a person who is not bothered abt this but ever since i have a tagged accountmany guys wanting to add me..i just get this self arrogance that im wanted by every idiotbut its stupid...thank god i didnt end up meeting up with any one and getting into trouble with them!im deleting my tagged account.like wat my darlings say i dun need to rush and im onli 19 this is not my priority!its not so fun to get hooked up and go on and cry over the fella and make love and blah blah blahwell dun ask me if im not shy to say all this in my blog..im not!im willing to face it that some times i rush and get my self in shit and later regret.cheryl noes all my shit..everything i went thru..she faced it and ya i think i had enuff...at least im willing to openly tel that im this type of a person rather than to hide and cheat ur ownself..well watever it is...i need to complete my damm diploma by aug la! one paper was done and shiva and i discussed and i realised i made mistakes..oh god please i seriously need to pull through or else whether my parents disown me or not i i will disown my own self.anyway i have one more paper and i need to do it well.im sure i can!had some arguements with shiva...he just cant accept a simple fact! too bad my dear..if u have such a bad impression on me or yourself u have to remove it and not me..ur ego can realli kill at times！who cares?!anyway gotta mug mug mug!im reporting to work on the 12june!OMG!!!! mum dad and sis went to malaysia..this is the first ever time in my life that they left me and went overseas..im all alone and shall spend it all alone in my darkest moments at home.shall just smoke the night away!!! WHEE!!!!
Walk to my grave along with your heart ♥ 10:58 PM
| Thursday, May 21, 2009 |
so much confusions..so much temptations...so much arguements..so much problems...i hate this feeling...i noe this is not the time to fall for all these BGR nonsense but somehow im into that shitnot realli into a relationship but just getting to noe each other and that process can kill and you want things ur way which is ridiculos..i just got to noe you not even a month and u tryin to show me ur attitude,sometimes i just dun feel like trusting you. You can be the nicest fella on earth but you justdun seem to understand the situation that u sometimes put me into,anyway like i said im not interested in gettin into a relationship or whatso ever! i think its stupid to go into a relationship when im onli like 19!!!this is a small convo me and my dad had tat day at home and..me: appa..wat will u do if i get a guy?dad: its ur life wat..me:serious?dad: as i told u and ur sister, u can get guys or guys get you, whther you end up gg into a r/s or watsoever just tell me and show me the fella, even if u two dun wanna tell ur mum....me: hmmm....ok...dad: why suddenly you askinme: i think im gettin to noe a guy from ....... and his name is ....... age....... occupation....dad: WAT THE HELL!!!!me: why?!!dad: ok be careful but just take it slow..me: wat if i fal in love and go on with him?dad: AIYO!!! i told u just tell me if anything goes on more than being just a FRIEND!!!me: ok! OK! OK! OK! chill daddy chill!!!dad: BUT DUN U DARE RUN AWAY WITH HIM!!!ME: PLEASE IM NOT SO STUPID!!!dad: i wun noE!!!!hahaha! so yeah i was crappin with him when he was life fixing some computer spare parts...sigh i guess i can onli reveal things to him the best than to my sisterits not like i dun trust her...its just that sometimes my sister blabbers out things and it may end up to my mum's ears! and i will get nice SHELLINGS FROM HER!!!!! swine!anyway things at home looks ok! my mum does not realli nag at me much now, i feel like she has let me do things i want my way and i also dun wanna go and take advantage of this situation.so yeah...my dad and i have been sharing alot of things abt my mum's side and i also promised him not to blabber it out and im not such a person!my life is kinda getting better and im missing my ATOSians!! my work place pple!hmmm....esp the customer service dept and teleservice and BULLYIN VIJAY!ahahah! the politics is kinda shitty in the office but when it comes to the colleagues they are so nice!esp my side and the SINDOO GANG!! all our gossip sessions!!!!! YUMMI!ahaha!i just love it!besides this there is nothing so interesting the damm office! but there is onli one issue tat is haunting me in the office which i realli hatei realli dunnoe how to handle this situation! its realli childish and appareantly i got involved! arGH!which realli is sucky and im startin to hate some people in my office regarding this issue! sigh!as a matured person i dunnoe why ur mind is so childish and makin issues so big! argh!!hmm so life goes on and im a happy happy gal =)
Walk to my grave along with your heart ♥ 3:33 AM
| Sunday, April 19, 2009 |
ok its time i seriously blog!
its super outdated!! and people have been tellin me to update.i fear to update it cause i will moan most of the time and its boring.
my life is ok now. So much shit has happened at work place...
as for school..just dun ask...i dun seem to attend classes much.just dun have the mood and the fact to attend classes for repeated modules. I go school but i sit and study on my own or i will just go clarke quay and moan my life...in some people's language is EMO!!!!! argh..
DD and MD...i seriously dunnoe...kinda give up on me..cause i cant meet them at all and its realli sucky i guess!! so i planned to meet them on saturday but seriously could not and i could see all their frustrations in Facebook..i dunnoe wat to reply..
Cousins been long except i meet yugan love on sundays for awakening course. i seriously hate this routine im going thru everyday..work school home and im seriously dreading to come home!
its realli sucky..
my mum always comments abt my dressing,she's always naggin at me and say why do i wear clothes which are revealing LIKE WTF!!!! sorri at least im not like ur elder daughter with no dressing sense and does not even look like an audit executive... and my sis is always grumbling abt her work! WORK WORK WORK!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! and she shows this swine facee of hers...and yellin at me and beatin me for stupid reasons!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! my dad is ok..i tell him everything and anything until some times he pities me but he has to support his wife or else no choice the wife wun let him sleep peacefully..i mean my mum is a wonderful person but the people around her can realli brainwash her! as for my sister..she's the worst photocopy of my mum....as for me im exactly like my dad!!
social life for me is like bizzare!!
not much things to do!
im kinda dreading and i miss people!
lots off them!
cousins....friends...and ya!
i so wanna go clubbin!!!!!!!!!!!! with my love!
tats abt it..please wait another century for me to blog next!hahah!
Walk to my grave along with your heart ♥ 4:47 AM
| Saturday, March 7, 2009 |
OK! im kinda bloggin very slowly nowdays..hmmm
anyway i wanna say THANKS TO CHERYL!!!!!!!!!
thanks for the wristlet babe! its beautiful!
and my Fav VICTORIA SECRET!haha!
anyway things are ok in my life..
its just that i cant go out or meet people much these days..
esp my darlings dd and md!
im sorri gals! will meet u both soon yA!
i still love ya both=)
school and work is surely a battle to handle..
tha past week ive not been studying..
everytime i wanna come home and study i get so tired and i was push it to the next day!
argh! stupid gal! and these days my motivation has gone down alot
last week end was spent well..
attended a course which makes my life a lil enlighten..
and im suppose to fast for 21 days..no coffee/tea/alcohol..
but i kinda accidently broke the fast.. oops!
hahah!
as for my social life..well i hate to mention it but its sucks and as for S and Y ,i dunnoe wat to say..
avoidance does not count esp S...the day that u move away from that bastard is the day i will be ok and you will find that u actuali were a fool..
im younger than u and i hate to advise older people..ive told u wat i think and its up to u now.
as for Y if u think ur tantrams and mood swings will make me fall OH PLEASE DREAM ON!
i cant be bothered..
i aint bothered...talk talk....dun talk..dun talk!
things may be finer..
hahahah!
ok then i think i gotta stop here but im gonna be a super vain pot but i realli love this picture of mine... so here for yoU!
Walk to my grave along with your heart ♥ 8:57 PM
| Sunday, February 22, 2009 |
YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!!!
ok im just excited for nothin just to make myself happi!
ive not updated much abt my V day..
on saturday nothin much..
cant explain too much in blog!haha!
so yeah..
sunday went awakening and guess why it was happenin cause my darlin is in it!!!!!!!!
whose my darlin??????
hahahah! YUGAN!!!!!!!
hes my darlin!
so yeah we attended the course and my aunty wanted to treat us go swensens!
so as usual my sis was busi and that anti social idiot just went back home!
so i had to wait for my aunty's daughter! me and yugan decided to slack around...
we went the whole of lil india findin for his phone charger..hahah!
so then his friend met us on the way ..
and then he saw us holdin hands and he was like askin yugan..
"since when u got a gf la?!"
and i and yugan left our hands off!hahah!
and i told his friend..its sunday and its full of men! so he was a protective bro and held on to my hand before some other idiot holds my hand!
and his friend was like...ohhh.....
anyway if u go to lil india on sunday its disastrous!hahah
in the whole street that day we walked at i think i was the onli gal! argh and all were lookin at me! cant stand it!the india guys!!!!
after that we went back to the centre and waited for a while more and went swensens!
hahah! i and yugan shared fish and chips..we just could not eat and then we bought ice cream and ate!
and after that! we went to walk around and he was like..." let me get my darlin a V day present....COME!" so we went into a shop and yeah..he asked me to choose but i was not sure...
so i told him to choose for me and i chose for him!
ahahha! we went and paid!...
i did not know wat he bought until we got out the shop..we didnt show each other at all..
once we went out we exchanged the gifts and WOHOO!!!!
he got me a nice one...so nice!!!!!!
its a box and inside there is 2 snoopy dolls!
both have a heart with them and on one of it has written there as...i love you!
awwwwww so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh and it did not cost lil!ahah!
i got him a mug which has mickey mouse which he loves and he realli liked it!hahah!
tat was an awesome day and hmmmmm...he walked me to the bus stop...and hugged me...and
sigh had to go home...hahah!
and as for all those who are wondering who this yugan is?
he's actualli my my cousin bro..
in indian way..its like a cousin whom i can marry...a distant cousin!hahah!
its like my mum's cousins's son!
somehow indians have this family tree in which a cousin ca marry another distant cousin!..
ah watever!
me and yugan....the most pampered and spoilt youngest kids in our households and most stubborn and demanding kids..we gossip about the stupidest thing on earth! and we eat like pigS!haha!!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU !
ps: dun worri so much abt wat she said to you or tried to do to you..she will realise ur true colours soon and as you noe...im here for you ..ur daily gossiper..we shall not stop our gossip sessions!haha...
Walk to my grave along with your heart ♥ 4:22 AM
